Compromise.

Hey you.

Just thought I'd drop by and share some wisdom with you. You get to know a little more about me and become that much wiser yourself in the process.So yeah, keep on reading as you always do.
Today's subject is going to be compromise. Lately I have been feeling less stable-more fragile.It is as if my long term values in life have taken a major blow and are on the verge of collapsing. I do not yet know what has caused this but I do my best to find out.The only good thing that has come out of it, is that nowadays I feel more prepared to face people daily. I don't avoid eye contact any more, I sometimes actually choose to sit next to people in a bus and I do not walk that fast now. In a nutshell, I am more social.
For me, changing my behaviour has always been cause and effect. I would change the way I looked, talked, laughed, even reacted, according to who I would be with. This has been something very easy for me to do, no matter how weird it sounds. I believe everyone does it every now and then, but I would become a totally different person while doing it. Have I lost my real self in the process, you ask. Had I ever found it, is my reply. Has any of us found it, or really knows himself for that matter? I sincerely doubt it. I believe life is -or at least should be- a big compromise. You give up on things to obtain other things. Literally and metaphorically. We only have that much time available to us, alas, we cannot do everything we wish.
The real question is, what are you willing to compromise in order to obtain something valuable you have found? And how easy is it to judge things and foresee the impact they have in your
life? Would I dare to pursue something uncertain and risk losing something established in it's place? I have figured out that it ultimately boils down to two things; the voice of reason within you and the voice of your emotions.

A shame they always contradict each other.

So what does a confused Bill do when facing this choice? I do not really have the answer to that, and knowing how much is at stake I think my compromise this time should be a really careful one...