With me, it is quite the opposite.
Oh, hello there stranger. Didn't see you coming.Do have a seat, i am in the beginning of my rant here.
Where was I? Ah,the kid. I have often caught myself wondering, how myself as a kid would react if i ran across me at this age. Would i like me? Would i become friends with me? I believe it is a question we should all answer sometime, for the kid inside us is worth an honest answer. But, back to me.You are here to read useless things about me that you will forget in an hour or so, remember?
If you expect to read that i have answered this question and that the answer was something along the lines of "Yeah i did have a conversation with the kid inside me and he liked what he saw, so i am a happy man" you could not be more wrong. Such things only happen in fairy tales stranger,and both you and me know that life definitely isn't one. Yes, i did talk with my kid.And if you must know what he told me...well...here it goes.
"Hello young Bill. As you may know, i am now 25 years old so it is time for you to just vanish from my life, become a dim memory of the past and eventually disappear altogether." I closed my eyes for a brief moment, waiting for him to vanish into thin air.
But not only did he stay there, staring at me with an angry look on his face,he also responded.
"I don't think so, grown up Bill." He said. "Us kids like to play games, and that is just what i shall do." He smiled. "I know we both liked to always do things our way, be different just for the sake of it, disagree just because we could, no matter how moot our arguments were.How about doing it one last time?"
I was tempted to hear what he had to say, yet afraid at the same time.Maybe he knew better.I let him continue.
"I think we should reverse roles.All adults try to hide the kids they have inside them, just like you try to do now.We are doing the opposite.I shall try to hide the adult inside a kid's character!"
For what it's worth, there is more to this story stranger. However, i have neither the time, nor the will to type it here-now.
Suffice to say, I was tempted. If you have been reading my blog you should know why. Leading a life based on a kid's mindset suddenly did not seem so immature.It was just a different way of thinking. Yes, there were drawbacks. Maybe also some communication issues with the people surrounding me. Perhaps some limitations on my daily activities would apply. Maybe i had to keep enjoying things a normal adult would not, or even refrain from visiting places an adult would, in order to spend some quality time. An alternate way of living. Originality. Isn't this what everyone strives for? There are many ways to achieve it,and one of them had manifested before me,inviting me to follow.
For those of you who want to know the end of the story, I promised young Bill that i would consider it, as i hesitantly walked away from him. But walking away from our problems tends not to be a permanent solution to anything...on the contrary, it only worsens a given situation. As you adults know.
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