Friday 10 October 2008

Rumor has it...

Hey there stranger.
At least i hope you are a stranger, because people i know only read this so that they can tell me they have read it once we meet in real life, i doubt anyone of them has any sort of interest in my blurbs.So, dear stranger i can't help but notice that you are back again in this humble little corner of the Internet that i call home.("Home" is metaphoric, my homepage is Google, d'oh.).Yeah, i like bad jokes too.
Today you shall read more of my thoughts,and i know you have been eagerly waiting for this moment to come,for you have nothing to do in your spare time, thus you are reading stupid blogs like this.Do you know what i like about you, stranger? The fact that you know nothing about me.This alone makes a wonderful reason for me to open my heart to you, share my deepest thoughts with you, and then scurry away from any criticism.Not that there would be any sort of criticism, mind, you.(Do ignore the "Comments" button though).
Anyway, time is -and has always been- unforgiving to those who waste it so i will get fast to my pointless point.Mr Stranger, i got a problem; I have been brought to believe by my close relatives and friends that i am smart.They won't stop telling me how smart i am and how easy it is for me to become something big in my life.(i hope they were not referring to my weight, as i was kind of...voluptuous in the past to say the least.).It is like a conspiracy i tell you! My failures are never noticeable, there is always something doable for me to undo my mistakes,everyone keeps praising me for my mind,my family and friends pretend to be in awe of my superior intellect!I believe this has led me into bad things, stranger.
To start with, i never believed that myself.I always thought i am a simple layman, the average Joe if you will.As years passed by though, and i grew older, this spam made me curious.I had to investigate if i was smart! I took some IQ tests, i conversed with some REALLY smart people, i tried to pass my exams with minimal studying, i started arguing with common sense in my conversations for no apparent reason trying to prove everyone wrong.Nothing was proving i was that smart! But people kept telling me how smart i was, without enough evidence to back it up.The situation was driving me up the wall, stranger, so i decided the reverse psychology thingy.I started acting absurdly, forgetting things on purpose, asking people stupid questions, agreeing with everything no matter how irrational it was.And it felt good.It felt me.But..but...but! Nobody seemed to notice this change of behavior, people were still applauding and commenting on my mental skills.I didn't know what to do, seriously.But i had to do something, this situation was making me sick.
So i did the worst i could have done.I started trusting this virtual intelligence of mine,never having second thoughts about any of my decisions,leaving everything to luck and instinct.I knew it was wrong, something deep inside me was telling me to stop doing it, think carefully before making any decisions.But my heart was telling me that i had to prove to my environment and myself whether i was really smart or not and apparently this was the way it had found to do that.The moment i type these lines that you are reading stranger, i still don't know whether i am smart or not.Hell, i don't even know how a smart person looks like or behaves or interacts with others.
My conclusion is that maybe all of us rush to classify ourselves, our beloved ones and everyone we care about as "smart".Because as human beings, we have to assure ourselves that only smart people surround us.Because all in all, this makes us smart too to the observer.It gives us a subconscious sense of silent approval from this cruel world and people that we are forced to interact with every day in our lives.
So, next time you want to call someone smart, don't do it, i beg you.He may go and write a blog like mine....and as you have already noticed, every time you read a post in my blog,your IQ drops a little. :)

The glum guy out.

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